Monday, April 5, 2010

Hope

So this is not going to be one of my typical blogs where I talk about our past week/week-end, vacations, friends/family, crafty projects, the weather;)....etc. I know I don't usually go into much personal detail on my blog but someting inside me keeps telling me to blog about this. I know there are some people that have had to deal with this in the past and some that are currently dealing with this same situation. I was hoping we would never have to deal with this. Getting Pregnant! The big P word or may I say the big I word (Infertility)! Jarod and I have been trying for a few months now and each month comes and goes and we have no positive pregnancy tests. It is hard not to think about it...especially when you hear somene else you know is PREGNANT. I am always excited for them but then at the same time wishes it was me announcing that news right along with them. Being a mommy is something I think almost every woman thinks about being.

So a couple weeks ago I went to the OB doctor to talk to him about this. I have had an irregular period ever since my parents were in an accident and so I knew this would make it even harder to get pregnant. I was nervous going to see him to hear what he had to say and if he would give me anything to help us get pregnant. I was happy to hear he was going to put me on Clomid.  A pill for infertility to help stimulate ovulation. It is something that is giving me HOPE right now and I just pray that it will work!!!! I started taking it yesterday and have to take it for 5 days. No side effects right now and hopefully I don't have any. This is our first step to take and I hope this is the only step. I am nervous but know that God has a plan for everyone. I just hope one of his many plans is to give me the ability to have one of his a children. I have some days where I just want to cry but then I have to remind myself to keep my head high. I know there are a lot of women out there that have to deal with this. You never know REALLY what it feels like until you are in that same situation. In a little over a week I have to get an ultrasound to see if I am producing follicles and to see if the medication is working.  I am asking for anyone to please pray this medication will work for us. I know GOD is in control and will answer prayers. Until then I guess we will have to see what will happen in the next few months....keeping my fingers crossed;) 

14 comments:

JessGraceIz said...

I will keep you and Jarod in my prayers. Giving all control to God is hard (I still have problems doing this) but he is all-knowing and all-wise and he will comfort you, strengthen you and calm you.
Let me know if you need anything, whatever it is (maybe something with ice cream, uh?)

Abbie said...

Just wanted to let you know that I will be praying for you guys, Ashley!! I hope one day you can look back at this time and be able to say that God was working in your lives in order to get you ready to be parents:) Hang in there, I know it must be so hard to have that yearning, yet get back negative pregnancy tests. I know this will all work out for you:)!!

Chelsa said...

I remember all too well the feeling of looking at that negative pregnancy test each month. Between B and A we struggled w/ infertility for over a year. I'll def. be praying for you!

Tera said...
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Tera said...

Mark me down as infertile. It's definitely not fun. We tried for 17 months...trips to specialists, lots of tests, etc. before getting pregnant with Braylee. Clomid helped us get Brynna. :) I have lots to share on this topic if you need someone to talk to...just email me or stop by sometime. Also- Tonya posted a great article on dealing with infertility as a Christian on her blog...back in January I think. Praying for you!!

Anonymous said...

Ashley, My heart breaks for you as you and Jarod go through this. I know all to well how you feel. All three of my children are clomid babies. It took 18mo. for Reed. I will be praying for you guys and I know it is hard but turn to God every moment. Giving God the control was hard, but looking back the Lord taught me so much that 18mo. If you ever need to talk feel free to call or stop in. Love and prayers, Brooke

Anonymous said...

praying for you guys! You will be wonderful parents someday! God does have a plan for you!

Greta said...

Add me to the list of Clomid takers. It helped us get Emma. Praying for you guys through this time. If you ever wanna talk just give me a call. Love you guys!

Nicole Benjamin said...

Praying for you both Ash! You two will be AMAZING parents!!

Ashley said...

I just wanted to thank all of you for your comments! I never knew there were so many people just that I know that had to take Clomid or had problems with infertility. Thanks SOOOO much for sharing and I know this is why I had that feeling to blog about this.

Anonymous said...

Ashley.... I know your fears... I've been there for over 2 years and clomid and provera (sp?) and injections... But Saturday we celebrated Kaden's 1st Birthday, It was all worth it. Pray God will listen....One thing the specialist suggested was that Aaron take a vitamin supplement everyday (Even Though I was the problem) and the next month we were finally pregnant. I forget the name but it is all natural and suppose to help. I forget the name but I will look it up tonight when I get home if you are interested you can buy it at Walmart. Jamie Gross Call anytime, if you want to talk.
812-257-1454

Sue said...

My 18 year old, Dillon was a clomid baby. Got pregnant the first month I was taking it and this was after 3 miscarriages and a little trouble getting pregnant each time. Hang in there....its a great time to really say God I'm not in control..you are and I trust you.

Brittany Janae said...

Praying for you guys, Ashley!!! Jeremiah 29:11...He has plans for you:)

Leah Robinson said...

Hey Ashley, sorry I'm just seeing this =)

I took Clomid for 3 cycles and I produced absolutley NO big follicles when we were trying to conceive Stella. I ended up seeing a fertility specialist in Eville and we tried stronger meds...the first cycle didn't work, then we skipped a month and then the next cycle I only had 1 good follicle and it worked!! We were preggo with Stella =)

PLEASE call or email me if you ever want to talk! I'd even meet with you for lunch sometime to chat! It's scary and frustrating, but it's good to talk to those who've "been there"! Hang in there girl!!