The wait.....this is what it is like!
due date unknown due date. This is one of the hardest parts! If I only knew when we were going to get our child I would do so much better. I want to do so much but then get discouraged because I really don't know when this will happen. I keep telling myself I want to at least get a crib, changing table/dresser and a couple outfits but then I back out. It is not that I don't want this because I CAN'T WAIT! It hasn't even been a month and it feels like a year. I am hoping I can do better with this.
I am so excited to adopt but then this whole process makes my heart ache. I pray for strength! I find myself checking the phone more often but then think this is silly because we wouldn't get a phone call this soon. I am ready for the challenge of sleepless nights and crazy schedules. I may be wondering why I said this in the future though.
I know I am having a hard time but then I try to think of the mother out there that is probably having an even harder time. Adoption is wonderful but is so different than the "cookie cutter" pregnancy. I see so many famalies announcing their exciting news and it does get to me sometimes. How can it be that easy? Our wait of almost four years will make our time even that more special! When our time comes......