Remembering my Sister

July 27, 2012 at noon was eight years since the car accident on July 27, 2004. It doesn't seem like eight years already! I will never forget that day or the night before the accident, which would be the last time I would see Lindsey here on earth. I still pray for dreams with her in them, think about her everyday and wonder what she is doing in heaven. When she died it was only 6 days after her 14th birthday. We are 5 years apart in age and we were just starting to get that close sisterly bond. We always got along but as we got older we were more interested in the same things, if you know what I mean?! 

Lindsey didn't ask for much, LOVED animals (especially rabbits, horses, dogs and cats), was a hard woker (she detasled corn that summer- I don't know if I could ever do that!), had a good heart and it didn't bother her much what others thought of her. The accident actually happened when they were on their way to the 4-H grounds. 

For the longest time I didn't talk about Lindsey or the accident much but gradually did start and now I want to bring her up. I don't know if a lot of people really know what exactly happened because I didn't explain it much. And I won't go into much detail. All I know is that I will NEVER forget seeing the car spin into the ditch in what seemed  like slow motion. I had never seen a car accident and then all of a sudden it was MY family that I was seeing in front of my eyes. I remember trying to feel for Lindsey's pulse while talking to my parents since they were awake the entire time during everything. I didn't know what to do. 

It didn't take long for help to arrive or until I was told to go into one of the ambulance's in which I don't remember what family remember was in that time. Everything seemed like a blur. When I received the news it felt like I was in a movie...like how they start out with the "not as bad news" to the worst possible! I just couldn't believe it! First my mom was okay but had a concussion, a few broken ribs, had to get staples in her head and they were going to keep her overnight in DCH. Then they told me my dad was life lined to Deaconess already and was in serious condition (I didn't even get to tell him bye). And then it came to my sister. I just knew but didn't want to hear it. 

My dad still says to this day that he should have went and Lindsey lived. It breaks my heart! But I know for now I will never know the exact reason God chose Lindsey. I know it feels like she had a short life here on earth but I bet she is very special up in heaven. It is always hard especially around her birthday and the anniversary! I cherish the memories we had together and I know she is watching over us. As hard as it is sometimes losing someone so close I would never change in a million years the memories we had those 14 years to none at all! 

The picture below is one my parents had made and I just LOVE it:) 

  

Lindsey Rochelle Nelson